Our Day at the Pool

We had such an exciting day at the pool today. Here is Malyki playing a game with Cy. At one time all the little kids were chasing him around the kiddie pool trying to catch the big fish.

Here is Malyki going across the Lilly Pads. That's quite a leap. Not only is he part Monkey, but part Frog too.

Here is Izaic, someone turned the wheel and showered him with water. I think he was a little suprised, but kept on playing.

Felicitee is going down the big slide. Here the lifeguard catches her because she isn't a strong swimmer yet.

Malyki is all about the fun. I can't wait to take him somewhere he can go on some real thilling rides.

Izaic is playing in the tube at the kiddie pool.

I have no idea what this look was all about. He probably saw a cute girl.

Cyrus just having fun.

Here's Felicitee being a little mommy again. Playing with Kenzee, one of her favorite things to do.

And after all this fun and three applications of sunblock, they still got burnt. Except Malyki, his skin isn't as fair.

The best Big Brother

Malyki is quite the helper when it

comes to helping his brothers and
sister. He does really well to get them breakfast on Saterday Morn. (My morning to sleep in) And put on a movie. At least if Cy doesn't want mom to do it. He is also really good about taking Cyrus potty when I'm busy and he needs to go. He can put a diaper on Cy at bedtime, and takes him for rides on his bike. He also takes Izaic, and lets Felis go for rides on it too. He also helps make lunch and snacks. He does really good with PB&J sandwiches, popcorn, chocolate milk, and much more. He is almost ready to cook an egg on his own, we're still working on it.

The little MoMMy

Cy-Cy got a break from Felicitee on
our camping trip where cousin Trinity was
the highlight for Felicitee. She had to
make sure she was always taken care of. She loves to take care of littler kids. She likes to give her cousins William and McKenzee lots of attention too. She feeds Willy his bottle and dress Kenzee up and make sure she has babies to play with. She is very responsible and takes care of her older brother too. She remembers Malyki's things for him when he forgets them, and will jump up and do his chores if it doesn't phase him when he's asked.

Bully of the House

Izaic has become quite the bully lately. Here he is trying to wash Cy-Cy's face by dunking it in the puddle. It only needed washed because he thought Cy's face would make a nice canvas for his muddy finger painting. I don't go far in the car with him unless I know he's tired. Since all the kids are right next to each other, he has to pick on whoever he can. But if I find a movie he likes, he zones and I can have a small break from it for a while.

Let you ImaGination Soar

Cyrus has become less testy as his imagination developes more. Here he is being "Rella" as in Cinderella. He is the only brother Felicitee has that will play dress up with her. It probably won't last long though. He talks on his phone quite regularlly too. It doesn't matter if its a tv remote or a stick he is always having a conversation with somebody. "I talking to my Dad" or "I talking Gramma." And my favorite. "There's a bug on you." Smack. (There's really not a bug). While driving one day he kept claiming, "A spider on me," and I would ask where, "Right there," pointing to his knee. Not really he just wanted to see if I would let him out of his carseat. And all it takes for the best fishing pole ever is a play necklace and stick.

Monday, Felicitee's Birthday

I'm taking the kids swimming in Lava on Monday, weather permitting of coarse. After that I plan to have cake and ice cream for Felicitee around 6 at my house, but I might do it at the pool. I'll probably have a really difficult time getting the kids away from the pool. Family price for Mon-Thurs is only $20, so its not too bad. And they have a comb. family pass for $35. I'm not sure what combination family is. Felis will be excited because I am bringing Gannon and Mady along too. She doesn't know yet because she is spending the weekend at Nana and Papa's house. Other then that I really can't afford to do much of anything else because I still have to pay for my hotel room for the wedding and get a wedding gift. Anybody want to go in on a BQ grill with me. I know they really want one. I also need to find outfits for my boys and some sandals for Felicitee. And I have to save enough for gas, and an oil change, its a little past due. I don't know if I even want to drive my car on the freeway, I think the pressure might cause the windshield to shatter. I think something hit it when I was at the store the other day, because there is a new, very big spider web right in the middle of the windshield. I might have to drive the Suburban. I sure hope not. Its 4 times more money for the trip. Too much. June has left me severly broke, July should be much better.

I'm Sorry

Sorry I can't seem to get my frustrations out without anger. The more time I spend alone, the angrier I am. I don't know why I even have a phone, it doesn't seem like anybody ever calls me, except the stupid credit card company trying to get me to tranfer my balances from the other credit cards that I DON"T EVEN HAVE. I came to WY, Memorial Day Weekend because I thought it would be helpful for me, but it really just got me even more upset. Bruce trys to play with Kaia and Ben, he acknowledges them. My kids, don't even get a Hi. He avoids them as much as possible. And when Izaic was sad and Crying he yelled at him and told him he was going to throw him out. But when Kaia was crying he asked her what was wrong. I realize that my kids, mostly my boys are just that, loud and wild. They have a lot of energy. I really don't feel like I'm welecome. I don't feel that I can take my kids for a snowmobile ride. Or that they will ever get to go boating at the lake.

As for Charley, the only point I am trying to make, is that he is trying really hard to make up for the mistakes he has made. The only reason he joined the guard is because he felt that it could give him the oppertunity to support his family. He's trying to change the child support order to pay more, because he wants to. But until that happens, he's just giving me more so that the kids will be taken care of. I believe people change. Yes he has made some terrible mistakes, so have I, but it doesn't define him. He hasn't just walked out of our lives, and stopped trying. He's not just being bitter because things haven't gone his way. He is really trying to change. And I believe he really loves me too. Why else would he be trying so hard. I know you all can't see it, and I don't know if I want to be with him again. But I recognize what he is doing and its a good thing.

And I have to get through school, so that someday we can have the life that I want to have. Yes I'll have to add student loans onto my bills, but it'll all be worth it. I have a 5 year and 10 year plan, so I know what I need to accomplish in those time frames. All I can do is make my best effort to accomplish those goals. It's really difficult to not be busy all the time, although I am with my kids. I'm not putting 40-50 hours a week into school and work right now. And I don't know what to do with myself. I'm going a little crazy, so I'm sorry that I got rid of my frustrations so rudely. I didn't want to cause any problems. Things just kept bundling up, I just couldn't deal with it anymore. Sorry again.